Wednesday, March 09, 2005

Looking forward

It is always good to look forward and to set goals. I always imagine that my future is rosy. However, when I look into the near future I am can hardly function. Being self-employed I cannot count on others to support me when things are light. This month which started off with tremendous promise coming off of two positive months has taken a turn south in a hurry. Work that seemed to be coming disappeared for one reason or another or was pushed into the future. What would have been tremendous is now bordering on an emergency. It is early in the month, but I am scrambling to just make ends meet while things pick up. I don't have enough consistent clients yet where I can count on steady work. I am early in the development of my business, so a lot of the services are more on the spot market. Eventually things will turn around, but right now I am a mess thinking about meeting my obligations this month....I have to plug along for near future and distant future work to eliminate this crisis and prevent it from happening in the months and years to come.

Saturday, March 05, 2005

Just like a kid

Adult life is a lot like being a kid. It goes back to, at least for boys and some girls, playing with the little plastic army men. You could set them up, but it always seemed that a few would fall before it was time for the battle. And they became dominos knocking over others. In adult life, the army men turn into appointments or tasks. You can set them up, however all of them don't ever seem to want to stand up. One falls into the other creating a mess of a schedule leading to the domino affect on your piece of mind.
We are all just big kids whether we like it or not.

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

Without a net

Being self-employed is walking the tightrope without a net. And the rope is more than a few feet off of the ground. I wouldn't change my position for anything. Buy my ups and downs leave me quite light headed at times. I am at this carnival by choice. It is not all pleasant, quite scary a lot of the time. It is getting better and I am learning the games. Soon everythings will be a smooth ride.......Right?

Tuesday, March 01, 2005


Today is no better than yesterday. Nor much better than the day before that. Will tomorrow be any different? I sure hope so because I am counting on it. I just build today for an improved tomorrow. If not then, maybe the one to follow. Eventually there is going to be a good one.

Can you tell that it is winter.

Monday, February 28, 2005


Age tends to creep up on you out of left field. You are twenty years old and nothing affects you. Then all of the sudden you are in your late thirties and every movement beyond normal brings aches and pains. And worse yet are the emotional rides that you put your system through. These put the physical strains to shame.....Old is a state of mind. Sometimes you do or do not mind the changes.

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

In the game?

If you want to get in the game
you have to have a goal
Let the dice roll
But make sure that you pick them up
you're going to want to play
Once again on a different day

Monday, February 21, 2005

Out of The Country

It is Presidents Day in our fine country, but our present President and two living ex-Presidents are abroad. It is sort of funny in a way.

Monday Monday

Why is Monday so much fun? I enjoy my work but this day is still a huge hill to climb. It isn't as though my weekends are that exciting.

The Monday Blues are just part of our least mine.